That’s what it was like this morning as I woke up aware it was morning but unable to see my surroundings. As I padded my way to the bathroom, I absentmindedly flipped the switch then flipped it again, and again. Then the one next to it, and the one next to that. Nothing. The power was out. I soon found out that trusting God is a bit like getting ready in the dark.
Trust is an important quality. It’s equally important to consider in whom we trust.
“Release. Just release. You’ve done the work, now release it and let God handle the outcome. Just release.”
Those words of wisdom from a friend rained down from my head to my heart over the next 24 hours, the last 24 hours of my time at the beach with the Lord.
I had gone there for 3 days to get away, to get perspective, unsure of what I would hear, when she offered those words of unsolicited but very needed advice. She didn’t know the chaos that was pummeling me from every side like a summer hurricane. Her words were simple, yet profound, speaking into several areas of my life at once and confirming what God had already been saying.
It wasn’t easy going at first. It’s hard for this do-er, this achiever, to still my mind and rest in the moment. As I prayed over the concerns in question, it was as if I sensed the Lord saying, “We’ll get to that.” “But Lord,” I responded, “What about…?” “We’ll get to that too.” And thus began the 31 day journey to better understanding how to lean on and trust the Lord more deeply.
“If I’m not mistaken, I think I hear the wind crying.”
He caught me. My husband and I were taking a walk together on the beach, except that I was the only one doing the walking; He spoke from the other side of the phone back home. Through the line, above the roar of the wind and waves, he heard my tears.
It was the third time in three days that a conversation tugged at my heart and released the valve to my tears, each time catching me off-guard. Were we going there again?!?
Have you ever wanted to run away? Me too. But what I learned is that is the wrong question. The better question is to ask: Who or what are you running to?