“Surely I’m in a dream. This is too surreal to be true,” I thought, as I looked for any signal that life as I knew it had not just changed faster than I could blink back the tears.
But a dream it was not, even though it felt like I had woken up that morning to walk into my very own version of a real life nightmare and no alarm to signal its welcomed end.
What started off as a normal day quickly turned to one leaving me breathless, and in search of answers to unthinkable questions.
It left me crying out, “God where are you?”
“God, don’t you care? You could have prevented this or at least protected me from it.”
My family was already going through a crisis with my husband’s recent diagnosis and ongoing treatment for cancer when the latest tsunami of instability rocked the foundation of our daily lives.
I could not fathom how we were going to get through this newest trial, or why God had allowed it when we were still wrestling with the cancer and its impact on our family.
In one moment I possessed the utmost confidence that we would make it through this challenge successfully, just like we have made it through every other trial we’ve ever encountered, with God’s help. We just didn’t have God’s map and the game plan yet.
The next moment I wavered and was fearful of all the uncertainties and an unknown future; afraid of everything I couldn’t see and had even less control of.
Within a few moments, I also experienced some intermittent anger because God hadn’t done what I thought He could have or should have. “Really, God? Couldn’t you have just given us a brief period of respite to catch our breath before the next wave dragged us under?”
I felt like a female version of a magic-8 ball, with my emotions and responses as capricious as the shake of a ball.
Even my husband, the most optimistic person I know was taken aback when he walked in at the end of the day and proclaimed, “Today stunk! BUT, it will be redeemed!”
He offered what I needed at that moment: HOPE. I was normally the “Hope-Girl,” or as some have referred to me, “Dr. Hope.” But for a brief period of time, I was overcome by grief and needed to borrow my husband’s hope. I knew in my heart that hope prevails, but I needed to borrow his hope while the Lord strengthened my resolve.
As word of our crisis began to spread among our close, praying friends, the question was repeatedly posed: “What are you going to do?”
The thing about crises is that so often, little is in your control and you don’t plan them, but rather, you react to them. Scripture says “The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps” (Proverbs 16:9 NASB).
Together my husband and I decided that we would:
1) Pray for wisdom and direction.
2) Not react in fear, but instead follow God’s lead.
3) Stand on truth rather than rely on our feelings.
Here’s what we know to be true:
• The truth is God was there all along and He knew what was going to happen before it happened, as well as how He would provide for the solution. (Philippians 4:19)
• The truth is that He is for us and not against us. (Romans 8:31)
• The truth is that He DOES care, he loves us with an everlasting love, and his mercies are new every morning. (Lamentations 3:23)
• The truth is that He has always been faithful in the past, and He will be faithful again. (1 Corinthians 1:9)
• The truth is that He knows the plans He has for us and those plans are good, and they are to prosper us and not to harm. (Jeremiah 29:11)
• The truth is that what the enemy intended for harm, God said He would use for our good. (Genesis 50:20)
We still don’t have answers, but we’re trusting in the One who does. We’re taking Him at His word, and standing on His promises and truth. That brings peace in the midst of the storm.
What do you need to stand on truth for today?
Because of Him, #HopePrevails!
A short brief about Hope Prevails.
Insights from a Doctor’s Personal Journey through Depression
Dr. Michelle Bengtson
Speaking from personal and professional experience, a neuropsychologist unpacks what depression is, shows how it affects us spiritually, and offers hope for living the abundant life.
Neuropsychologist Offers Hope to Those Struggling with Depression
-By 2020, depression will be our greatest epidemic worldwide
- An estimated 350 million people worldwide suffer from some form of depression
- As with the bestselling My Stroke of Insight, the author experienced the same condition she treats
- Helpful features include personal stories, biblical truths, prayers, and music recommendations
In Hope Prevails, Dr. Bengtson writes with deep compassion and empathy, blending her extensive training and faith, to offer readers a hope that is grounded in God’s love and grace. She helps readers understand what depression is, how it affects them spiritually, and what, by God’s grace, it cannot do. The result is a treatment plan that addresses the whole person—not just chemical imbalances in the brain.
For those who struggle with depression and those that want to help them, Hope Prevails offers real hope for the future.
Hope Prevails is available now wherever books are sold. To find out more, see: http://drmichellebengtson.com/hope-prevails-book/.