The Birth Of A Dream by Dr. Michelle Bengtson


Have you ever had a dream?

I’ve entertained several in my life: becoming a doctor, having children, and writing a book.

I accomplished the first over 20 years ago, before I was old enough and wise enough to realize that sometimes dreams don’t become a reality.

I was blessed with the second dream a few years later.

And the third? It’s a work in progress, and I’m happy to say I sent off the first completed draft to my publisher about a week ago. As I did, I was surprised by the feeling of being overwhelmed with a flood of different emotions.

I anticipated being ecstatic, so why the tears running down my cheeks?

As I shared with a friend that I had just hit “send” and asked for her prayers that God would take it from here, use it for His purposes, and prepare the hearts of those He wanted to minister to through it, she hit the nail on the head:

“Does it feel a little like you’ve just given your baby up for adoption?’

That rang true for me in many ways. As I thought about this dream that God planted in my heart as a young girl, I realized there were many similarities between having a baby and writing a book:

-For me, both required about 9 months to deliver. Now the idea of writing the book came to me a couple years ago, and then came the long, arduous process of writing the book proposal and sending that to agents and editors. But from the time it was contracted with a publisher until I finished the first draft, it took almost 9 months.

There are obstacles along the way. With my pregnancies, there were questions regarding could I carry my babies to term, not to mention the physical obstacles…after a certain point I could no longer see my feet, nor reach the pedals in my car. With my book, there were health obstacles that sidelined me for months, there were assaults on my confidence and self-esteem, and there was the difficult balance between writing and my real job.

-Both after the birth of my children, and after hitting “send” to email the manuscript to my publisher, I found myself overwhelmed with a flood of emotion: happy, excited, in shock, relieved, nervous, doubtful.

For me, with both of them, after birthing them, I found myself pretty quickly  wondering first, “What have I done?” then “What now?” Before you’ve experienced it for the first time, you really can’t be realistically prepared for either birthing a baby or a book. With both dreams, I quickly learned neither came with an instruction manual. The only thing I could be sure of was that God would lead and guide me-I didn’t have to figure it out on my own.

With both a baby and a book, there were questions about how it would look and who it would resemble. Would they look like me? Would they sound like me? Would they be accepted and valued by others?

They were both born out of obedience. My husband and I knew God called us to be parents, and not to do so would be selfish and disobedient. I too knew God called me to write this book. He called me to share my story. It would be hard, it would be messy and not very pretty many days, it would require pain, but not to do so would be selfish and disobedient.

There were many days during my pregnancy and during the writing process that I thought to myself, “I’m not sure I can do this!” There were also days I wondered if it was cruel to bring children in the world today. Let’s face it, there were also times I candidly wondered, “What am I getting myself into?’

In that moment when the baby is born, and when I pushed “send” on the email sending my manuscript to the publisher, I experienced such an overwhelming flood of emotions. I was unprepared. I expected to be happy or excited, but overwhelmed? Panicked? Nervous? Sending the book to the publisher felt like handing my child over to a new babysitter or to be adopted…would they care for my baby like I would?

With either dream, the question ultimately was “will I trust God with it?”

I learned that no matter what the dream, it requires courage, creativity, and persistence.

One thing I learned through both experiences is that if God brings you to it, He equips you through it.

“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6

Perhaps the most important thing that I learned was that with God, your dreams can become your reality.

Your Dreams Become Your Reality by Dr. Michelle Bengtson

What dream are you pursuing? In what ways does it stretch your faith?

Hope Prevails,
Dr. B

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